"TOO SMART FOR MY OWN GOOD" by Jean Cord

Is it possible
     To use your
Brains
     For no good
Yeah, it is
Misunderstood
I was
     A missile
Unguided
No direction
     No home
In darkness
I roamed
on a path
     Of
self-destruction
I would
Never
Hurt nobody
But
     Myself
Alone
Was the only target
Meant for
Elimination
I was a 
     "Danger to Self"
     "Unsafe"
Why y'all
Stoppin' me
I wanted to
     Die
I really think I
     Just wanted to
Cry
Goin' over the brink
Day after day
Pray
Y'all
That everyone
Can find
     God
Nobody
Deserves
To be condemned
     Today
     Pray
     Y'all
If you do not think
Jesus
     Loves you
Who then
     Do ya think
Pulled you away
     From that brink???!!!
Who 
     Do ya think
Pulled you away
     From the edge???!!!
My doc did it
     For so long
My family
     Pulled me back
A couple of times
     But,
It did not 
Matter
Plan of attack
Brain splatter
I was cryin'
Y'all
I was
     Dyin'
In my
     Body
     Mind
     And my
Spirit
Could I be saved???!!!
With ALL
     The pain
I caused 
     By my own
Hand
I didn't mean it
Was there ANYTHING
     Left to Gain???!!!
Was it worth it
To raise
My head
In the morn'
Was it worth it
For Christ
     Bein' born???!!!
Was it worth His life
     His sacrifice
On the cross
     For ours???!!!
Yeah, y'all
It was worth it
Do you 
     Want to die
Tonight
Why???!!!
Will you be goin'
     To
Heaven or Hell
Fight
Y'all
Stomp
Scream
Let Jesus know
Your need

Tonight

Feed on his word
Listen
     To the words
DO NOT
     GIVE UP!!!!!!
-Jeanne Cord